‘Life is the teacher.’
What does this statement mean? It means searching for a more refined attention in my busy everyday life. It’s only there, if I’m honest, when I can really see the many different sides to myself. My search is not a separate compartment of my life. It’s not a ‘meditation practice’ left behind after closing the door to a ‘peaceful’ room. My search has to be tested in life. It’s easy to say ‘be here now’ but, if I’m really honest with myself, I can’t BE HERE NOW. Reading all the books in the world will not help me BE HERE NOW. A cold shiver running down my spine – a sense that one day I will die – wakes me up to a big question: who am I? Are other questions there?
- Do I sense my bodily tension when I’m in a crowded place?
- Do I sense a different tone in my voice when I’m in this or that situation?
- Where is my attention NOW?
I often feel I’m right, that I know better. In life, when people ‘push my buttons’, my shallow self-satisfaction disappears instantly. I react, usually negatively, with a lot of ‘inner talking’. This reaction is energy. Everything is energy. My attention is the way I can better ‘see’ this energy in myself, allowing me sometimes to sense a finer energy there. Attention can bring a greater sense of being alive, here and now, more alert, engaged with my life. I can’t do this alone. A Group is needed to share my honest observations and listen to the sincere struggles of other people. I need guidance from someone who has ‘gone before’, someone who has also searched sincerely over a period of time. Sensing a finer attention inside my body, only then, can life be the teacher.
The next Café Gurdjieff event in Central London is at 11am on Saturday 4 March. FOr details and to register to participate go to our Meetup Group.